CHAPTER I
FELICITE
For half a century the housewives of Pont-l'Eveque had envied Madame Aubain her servant Felicite.
For a hundred
francs a year, she cooked and did the housework, washed, ironed, mended,
harnessed the horse, fattened the poultry, made the butter and remained
faithful to her mistress--although the latter was by no means an agreeable
person.
Madame Aubain
had married a comely youth without any money, who died in the beginning of
1809, leaving her with two young children and a number of debts. She sold all
her property excepting the farm of Toucques and the farm of Geffosses, the
income of which barely amounted to 5,000 francs; then she left her house in Saint-Melaine,
and moved into a less pretentious one which had belonged to her ancestors and
stood back of the market-place. This house, with its slate-covered roof, was
built between a passage-way and a narrow street that led to the river. The
interior was so unevenly graded that it caused people to stumble. A narrow hall
separated the kitchen from the parlour, where Madame Aubain sat all day in a
straw armchair near the window. Eight mahogany chairs stood in a row against
the white wainscoting. An old piano, standing beneath a barometer, was covered
with a pyramid of old books and boxes. On either side of the yellow marble
mantelpiece, in Louis XV style, stood a tapestry armchair. The clock
represented a temple of Vesta; and the whole room smelled musty, as it was on a
lower level than the garden.
On the first
floor was Madame's bedchamber, a large room papered in a flowered design and
containing the portrait of Monsieur dressed in the costume of a dandy. It
communicated with a smaller room, in which there were two little cribs, without
any mattresses. Next, came the parlour (always closed), filled with furniture
covered with sheets. Then a hall, which led to the study, where books and
papers were piled on the shelves of a book-case that enclosed three quarters of
the big black desk. Two panels were entirely hidden under pen-and-ink sketches,
Gouache landscapes and Audran engravings, relics of better times and vanished
luxury. On the second floor, a garret-window lighted Felicite's room, which
looked out upon the meadows.
She arose at
daybreak, in order to attend mass, and she worked without interruption until
night; then, when dinner was over, the dishes cleared away and the door
securely locked, she would bury the log under the ashes and fall asleep in
front of the hearth with a rosary in her hand. Nobody could bargain with
greater obstinacy, and as for cleanliness, the lustre on her brass saucepans
was the envy and despair of other servants. She was most economical, and when
she ate she would gather up crumbs with the tip of her finger, so that nothing
should be wasted of the loaf of bread weighing twelve pounds which was baked
especially for her and lasted three weeks.
Summer and
winter she wore a dimity kerchief fastened in the back with a pin, a cap which
concealed her hair, a red skirt, grey stockings, and an apron with a bib like
those worn by hospital nurses.
Her face was
thin and her voice shrill. When she was twenty-five, she looked forty. After
she had passed fifty, nobody could tell her age; erect and silent always, she
resembled a wooden figure working automatically.
CHAPTER II
THE HEROINE
Like every other woman, she had had an affair of the heart. Her father, who was a mason, was killed by falling from a scaffolding. Then her mother died and her sisters went their different ways; a farmer took her in, and while she was quite small, let her keep cows in the fields. She was clad in miserable rags, beaten for the slightest offence and finally dismissed for a theft of thirty sous which she did not commit. She took service on another farm where she tended the poultry; and as she was well thought of by her master, her fellow-workers soon grew jealous.
One evening
in August (she was then eighteen years old), they persuaded her to accompany
them to the fair at Colleville. She was immediately dazzled by the noise, the
lights in the trees, the brightness of the dresses, the laces and gold crosses,
and the crowd of people all hopping at the same time. She was standing modestly
at a distance, when presently a young man of well-to-do appearance, who had
been leaning on the pole of a wagon and smoking his pipe, approached her, and
asked her for a dance. He treated her to cider and cake, bought her a silk
shawl, and then, thinking she had guessed his purpose, offered to see her home.
When they came to the end of a field he threw her down brutally. But she grew
frightened and screamed, and he walked off.
One evening,
on the road leading to Beaumont, she came upon a wagon loaded with hay, and
when she overtook it, she recognised Theodore. He greeted her calmly, and asked
her to forget what had happened between them, as it "was all the fault of
the drink."
She did not
know what to reply and wished to run away.
Presently he
began to speak of the harvest and of the notables of the village; his father
had left Colleville and bought the farm of Les Ecots, so that now they would be
neighbors. "Ah!" she exclaimed. He then added that his parents were
looking around for a wife for him, but that he, himself, was not so anxious and
preferred to wait for a girl who suited him. She hung her head. He then asked
her whether she had ever thought of marrying. She replied, smilingly, that it
was wrong of him to make fun of her. "Oh! no, I am in earnest," he
said, and put his left arm around her waist while they sauntered along. The air
was soft, the stars were bright, and the huge load of hay oscillated in front
of them, drawn by four horses whose ponderous hoofs raised clouds of dust.
Without a word from their driver they turned to the right. He kissed her again
and she went home. The following week, Theodore obtained meetings.
They met in
yards, behind walls or under isolated trees. She was not ignorant, as girls of
well-to-do families are--for the animals had instructed her;--but her reason
and her instinct of honour kept her from falling. Her resistance exasperated
Theodore's love and so in order to satisfy it (or perchance ingenuously), he
offered to marry her. She would not believe him at first, so he made solemn
promises. But, in a short time he mentioned a difficulty; the previous year,
his parents had purchased a substitute for him; but any day he might be drafted
and the prospect of serving in the army alarmed him greatly. To Felicite his
cowardice appeared a proof of his love for her, and her devotion to him grew
stronger. When she met him, he would torture her with his fears and his
entreaties. At last, he announced that he was going to the prefect himself for
information, and would let her know everything on the following Sunday, between
eleven o'clock and midnight.
When the time
drew near, she ran to meet her lover.
But instead
of Theodore, one of his friends was at the meeting-place.
He informed
her that she would never see her sweetheart again; for, in order to escape the
conscription, he had married a rich old woman, Madame Lehoussais, of Toucques.
The poor
girl's sorrow was frightful. She threw herself on the ground, she cried and
called on the Lord, and wandered around desolately until sunrise. Then she went
back to the farm, declared her intention of leaving, and at the end of the
month, after she had received her wages, she packed all her belongings in a
handkerchief and started for Pont-l'Eveque.
In front of
the inn, she met a woman wearing widow's weeds, and upon questioning her,
learned that she was looking for a cook. The girl did not know very much, but
appeared so willing and so modest in her requirements, that Madame Aubain
finally said:
"Very
well, I will give you a trial."
And half an
hour later Felicite was installed in her house.
At first she
lived in a constant anxiety that was caused by "the style of the household"
and the memory of "Monsieur," that hovered over everything. Paul and
Virginia, the one aged seven, and the other barely four, seemed made of some
precious material; she carried them pig-a-back, and was greatly mortified when
Madame Aubain forbade her to kiss them every other minute.
But in spite
of all this, she was happy. The comfort of her new surroundings had obliterated
her sadness.
Every
Thursday, friends of Madame Aubain dropped in for a game of cards, and it was
Felicite's duty to prepare the table and heat the foot-warmers. They arrived at
exactly eight o'clock and departed before eleven.
Every Monday
morning, the dealer in second-hand goods, who lived under the alley-way, spread
out his wares on the sidewalk. Then the city would be filled with a buzzing of
voices in which the neighing of horses, the bleating of lambs, the grunting of
pigs, could be distinguished, mingled with the sharp sound of wheels on the
cobble-stones. About twelve o'clock, when the market was in full swing, there
appeared at the front door a tall, middle-aged peasant, with a hooked nose and
a cap on the back of his head; it was Robelin, the farmer of Geffosses. Shortly
afterwards came Liebard, the farmer of Toucques, short, rotund and ruddy,
wearing a grey jacket and spurred boots.
Both men
brought their landlady either chickens or cheese. Felicite would invariably
thwart their ruses and they held her in great respect.
At various
times, Madame Aubain received a visit from the Marquis de Gremanville, one of
her uncles, who was ruined and lived at Falaise on the remainder of his
estates. He always came at dinner-time and brought an ugly poodle with him,
whose paws soiled the furniture. In spite of his efforts to appear a man of
breeding (he even went so far as to raise his hat every time he said "My
deceased father"), his habits got the better of him, and he would fill his
glass a little too often and relate broad stories. Felicite would show him out
very politely and say: "You have had enough for this time, Monsieur de
Gremanville! Hoping to see you again!" and would close the door.
She opened it
gladly for Monsieur Bourais, a retired lawyer. His bald head and white cravat,
the ruffling of his shirt, his flowing brown coat, the manner in which he took
his snuff, his whole person, in fact, produced in her the kind of awe which we
feel when we see extraordinary persons. As he managed Madame's estates, he
spent hours with her in Monsieur's study; he was in constant fear of being
compromised, had a great regard for the magistracy and some pretensions to
learning.
In order to
facilitate the children's studies, he presented them with an engraved geography
which represented various scenes of the world: cannibals with feather
head-dresses, a gorilla kidnapping a young girl, Arabs in the desert, a whale
being harpooned, etc.
Paul
explained the pictures to Felicite. And, in fact, this was her only literary
education.
The
children's studies were under the direction of a poor devil employed at the
town-hall, who sharpened his pocketknife on his boots and was famous for his
penmanship.
When the
weather was fine, they went to Geffosses. The house was built in the centre of
the sloping yard; and the sea looked like a grey spot in the distance. Felicite
would take slices of cold meat from the lunch basket and they would sit down
and eat in a room next to the dairy. This room was all that remained of a
cottage that had been torn down. The dilapidated wall-paper trembled in the
drafts. Madame Aubain, overwhelmed by recollections, would hang her head, while
the children were afraid to open their mouths. Then, "Why don't you go and
play?" their mother would say; and they would scamper off.
Paul would go
to the old barn, catch birds, throw stones into the pond, or pound the trunks
of the trees with a stick till they resounded like drums. Virginia would feed
the rabbits and run to pick the wild flowers in the fields, and her flying legs
would disclose her little embroidered pantalettes. One autumn evening, they
struck out for home through the meadows. The new moon illumined part of the sky
and a mist hovered like a veil over the sinuosities of the river. Oxen, lying
in the pastures, gazed mildly at the passing persons. In the third field,
however, several of them got up and surrounded them. "Don't be afraid,"
cried Felicite; and murmuring a sort of lament she passed her hand over the
back of the nearest ox; he turned away and the others followed. But when they
came to the next pasture, they heard frightful bellowing.
It was a bull
which was hidden from them by the fog. He advanced towards the two women, and
Madame Aubain prepared to flee for her life. "No, no! not so fast,"
warned Felicite. Still they hurried on, for they could hear the noisy breathing
of the bull close behind them. His hoofs pounded the grass like hammers, and
presently he began to gallop! Felicite turned around and threw patches of grass
in his eyes. He hung his head, shook his horns and bellowed with fury. Madame
Aubain and the children, huddled at the end of the field, were trying to jump
over the ditch. Felicite continued to back before the bull, blinding him with
dirt, while she shouted to them to make haste.
Madame Aubain
finally slid into the ditch, after shoving first Virginia and then Paul into
it, and though she stumbled several times she managed, by dint of courage, to
climb the other side of it.
The bull had
driven Felicite up against a fence; the foam from his muzzle flew in her face
and in another minute he would have disembowelled her. She had just time to
slip between two bars and the huge animal, thwarted, paused.
For years,
this occurrence was a topic of conversation in Pont-l'Eveque. But Felicite took
no credit to herself, and probably never knew that she had been heroic.
Virginia
occupied her thoughts solely, for the shock she had sustained gave her a
nervous affection, and the physician, M. Poupart, prescribed the saltwater
bathing at Trouville. In those days, Trouville was not greatly patronised.
Madame Aubain gathered information, consulted Bourais, and made preparations as
if they were going on an extended trip.
The baggage
was sent the day before on Liebard's cart. On the following morning, he brought
around two horses, one of which had a woman's saddle with a velveteen back to
it, while on the crupper of the other was a rolled shawl that was to be used
for a seat. Madame Aubain mounted the second horse, behind Liebard. Felicite
took charge of the little girl, and Paul rode M. Lechaptois' donkey, which had
been lent for the occasion on the condition that they should be careful of it.
The road was
so bad that it took two hours to cover the eight miles. The two horses sank
knee-deep into the mud and stumbled into ditches; sometimes they had to jump
over them. In certain places, Liebard's mare stopped abruptly. He waited
patiently till she started again, and talked of the people whose estates
bordered the road, adding his own moral reflections to the outline of their
histories. Thus, when they were passing through Toucques, and came to some
windows draped with nasturtiums, he shrugged his shoulders and said:
"There's a woman, Madame Lehoussais, who, instead of taking a young
man--" Felicite could not catch what followed; the horses began to trot,
the donkey to gallop, and they turned into a lane; then a gate swung open, two
farm-hands appeared and they all dismounted at the very threshold of the
farm-house.
Mother
Liebard, when she caught sight of her mistress, was lavish with joyful
demonstrations. She got up a lunch which comprised a leg of mutton, tripe,
sausages, a chicken fricassee, sweet cider, a fruit tart and some preserved
prunes; then to all this the good woman added polite remarks about Madame, who
appeared to be in better health, Mademoiselle, who had grown to be "superb,"
and Paul, who had become singularly sturdy; she spoke also of their deceased
grandparents, whom the Liebards had known, for they had been in the service of
the family for several generations.
Like its
owners, the farm had an ancient appearance. The beams of the ceiling were
mouldy, the walls black with smoke and the windows grey with dust. The oak
sideboard was filled with all sorts of utensils, plates, pitchers, tin bowls,
wolf-traps. The children laughed when they saw a huge syringe. There was not a
tree in the yard that did not have mushrooms growing around its foot, or a
bunch of mistletoe hanging in its branches. Several of the trees had been blown
down, but they had started to grow in the middle and all were laden with
quantities of apples. The thatched roofs, which were of unequal thickness,
looked like brown velvet and could resist the fiercest gales. But the
wagon-shed was fast crumbling to ruins. Madame Aubain said that she would
attend to it, and then gave orders to have the horses saddled.
It took
another thirty minutes to reach Trouville. The little caravan dismounted in
order to pass Les Ecores, a cliff that overhangs the bay, and a few minutes
later, at the end of the dock, they entered the yard of the Golden Lamb, an inn
kept by Mother David.
During the
first few days, Virginia felt stronger, owing to the change of air and the
action of the sea-baths. She took them in her little chemise, as she had no
bathing suit, and afterwards her nurse dressed her in the cabin of a customs
officer, which was used for that purpose by other bathers.
In the
afternoon, they would take the donkey and go to the Roches-Noires, near
Hennequeville. The path led at first through undulating grounds, and thence to
a plateau, where pastures and tilled fields alternated. At the edge of the
road, mingling with the brambles, grew holly bushes, and here and there stood
large dead trees whose branches traced zigzags upon the blue sky.
Ordinarily,
they rested in a field facing the ocean, with Deauville on their left, and
Havre on their right. The sea glittered brightly in the sun and was as smooth
as a mirror, and so calm that they could scarcely distinguish its murmur;
sparrows chirped joyfully and the immense canopy of heaven spread over it all.
Madame Aubain brought out her sewing, and Virginia amused herself by braiding
reeds; Felicite wove lavender blossoms, while Paul was bored and wished to go
home.
Sometimes
they crossed the Toucques in a boat, and started to hunt for seashells. The
outgoing tide exposed starfish and sea-urchins, and the children tried to catch
the flakes of foam which the wind blew away. The sleepy waves lapping the sand
unfurled themselves along the shore that extended as far as the eye could see,
but where land began, it was limited by the downs which separated it from the
"Swamp," a large meadow shaped like a hippodrome. When they went home
that way, Trouville, on the slope of a hill below, grew larger and larger as
they advanced, and, with all its houses of unequal height, seemed to spread out
before them in a sort of giddy confusion.
When the heat
was too oppressive, they remained in their rooms. The dazzling sunlight cast
bars of light between the shutters. Not a sound in the village, not a soul on
the sidewalk. This silence intensified the tranquillity of everything. In the
distance, the hammers of some calkers pounded the hull of a ship, and the
sultry breeze brought them an odour of tar.
The principal
diversion consisted in watching the return of the fishing-smacks. As soon as
they passed the beacons, they began to ply to windward. The sails were lowered
to one third of the masts, and with their foresails swelled up like balloons
they glided over the waves and anchored in the middle of the harbour. Then they
crept up alongside of the dock and the sailors threw the quivering fish over
the side of the boat; a line of carts was waiting for them, and women with
white caps sprang forward to receive the baskets and embrace their men-folk.
One day, one
of them spoke to Felicite, who, after a little while, returned to the house
gleefully. She had found one of her sisters, and presently Nastasie Barette,
wife of Leroux, made her appearance, holding an infant in her arms, another
child by the hand, while on her left was a little cabin-boy with his hands in
his pockets and his cap on his ear.
At the end of
fifteen minutes, Madame Aubain bade her go.
They always
hung around the kitchen, or approached Felicite when she and the children were
out walking. The husband, however, did not show himself.
Felicite developed
a great fondness for them; she bought them a stove, some shirts and a blanket;
it was evident that they exploited her. Her foolishness annoyed Madame Aubain,
who, moreover did not like the nephew's familiarity, for he called her son
"thou";--and, as Virginia began to cough and the season was over, she
decided to return to Pont-l'Eveque.
Monsieur
Bourais assisted her in the choice of a college. The one at Caen was considered
the best. So Paul was sent away and bravely said good-bye to them all, for he
was glad to go to live in a house where he would have boy companions.
Madame Aubain
resigned herself to the separation from her son because it was unavoidable.
Virginia brooded less and less over it. Felicite regretted the noise he made,
but soon a new occupation diverted her mind; beginning from Christmas, she
accompanied the little girl to her catechism lesson every day.
CHAPTER III
DEATH
After she had made a curtsey at the threshold, she would walk up the aisle between the double lines of chairs, open Madame Aubain's pew, sit down and look around.
Girls and
boys, the former on the right, the latter on the left-hand side of the church,
filled the stalls of the choir; the priest stood beside the reading-desk; on
one stained window of the side-aisle the Holy Ghost hovered over the Virgin; on
another one, Mary knelt before the Child Jesus, and behind the altar, a wooden
group represented Saint Michael felling the dragon.
The priest
first read a condensed lesson of sacred history. Felicite evoked Paradise, the
Flood, the Tower of Babel, the blazing cities, the dying nations, the shattered
idols; and out of this she developed a great respect for the Almighty and a
great fear of His wrath. Then, when she listened to the Passion, she wept. Why
had they crucified Him who loved little children, nourished the people, made
the blind see, and who, out of humility, had wished to be born among the poor,
in a stable? The sowings, the harvests, the wine-presses, all those familiar
things which the Scriptures mention, formed a part of her life; the word of God
sanctified them; and she loved the lambs with increased tenderness for the sake
of the Lamb, and the doves because of the Holy Ghost.
She found it
hard, however, to think of the latter as a person, for was it not a bird, a
flame, and sometimes only a breath? Perhaps it is its light that at night
hovers over swamps, its breath that propels the clouds, its voice that renders
church-bells harmonious. And Felicite worshipped devoutly, while enjoying the
coolness and the stillness of the church.
As for the
dogma, she could not understand it and did not even try. The priest discoursed,
the children recited, and she went to sleep, only to awaken with a start when
they were leaving the church and their wooden shoes clattered on the stone
pavement.
In this way,
she learned her catechism, her religious education having been neglected in her
youth; and thenceforth she imitated all Virginia's religious practises, fasted
when she did, and went to confession with her. At the Corpus-Christi Day they
both decorated an altar.
She worried
in advance over Virginia's first communion. She fussed about the shoes, the
rosary, the book and the gloves. With what nervousness she helped the mother
dress the child!
During the
entire ceremony, she felt anguished. Monsieur Bourais hid part of the choir
from view, but directly in front of her, the flock of maidens, wearing white
wreaths over their lowered veils, formed a snow-white field, and she recognised
her darling by the slenderness of her neck and her devout attitude. The bell
tinkled. All the heads bent and there was a silence. Then, at the peals of the
organ the singers and the worshippers struck up the Agnus Dei; the boys'
procession began; behind them came the girls. With clasped hands, they advanced
step by step to the lighted altar, knelt at the first step, received one by one
the Host, and returned to their seats in the same order. When Virginia's turn
came, Felicite leaned forward to watch her, and through that imagination which
springs from true affection, she at once became the child, whose face and dress
became hers, whose heart beat in her bosom, and when Virginia opened her mouth
and closed her lids, she did likewise and came very near fainting.
The following
day, she presented herself early at the church so as to receive communion from
the cure. She took it with the proper feeling, but did not experience the same
delight as on the previous day.
Madame Aubain
wished to make an accomplished girl of her daughter; and as Guyot could not
teach English nor music, she decided to send her to the Ursulines at Honfleur.
The child
made no objection, but Felicite sighed and thought Madame was heartless. Then,
she thought that perhaps her mistress was right, as these things were beyond
her sphere. Finally, one day, an old _fiacre_ stopped in front of the door and
a nun stepped out. Felicite put Virginia's luggage on top of the carriage, gave
the coachman some instructions, and smuggled six jars of jam, a dozen pears and
a bunch of violets under the seat.
At the last
minute, Virginia had a fit of sobbing; she embraced her mother again and again,
while the latter kissed her on her forehead, and said: "Now, be brave, be
brave!" The step was pulled up and the _fiacre_ rumbled off.
Then Madame
Aubain had a fainting spell, and that evening all her friends, including the
two Lormeaus, Madame Lechaptois, the ladies Rochefeuille, Messieurs de
Houppeville and Bourais, called on her and tendered their sympathy.
At first the
separation proved very painful to her. But her daughter wrote her three times a
week and the other days she, herself, wrote to Virginia. Then she walked in the
garden, read a little, and in this way managed to fill out the emptiness of the
hours.
Each morning,
out of habit, Felicite entered Virginia's room and gazed at the walls. She
missed combing her hair, lacing her shoes, tucking her in her bed, and the
bright face and little hand when they used to go out for a walk. In order to
occupy herself she tried to make lace. But her clumsy fingers broke the
threads; she had no heart for anything, lost her sleep and "wasted
away," as she put it.
In order to
have some distraction, she asked leave to receive the visits of her nephew
Victor.
He would come
on Sunday, after church, with ruddy cheeks and bared chest, bringing with him
the scent of the country. She would set the table and they would sit down
opposite each other, and eat their dinner; she ate as little as possible,
herself, to avoid any extra expense, but would stuff him so with food that he
would finally go to sleep. At the first stroke of vespers, she would wake him
up, brush his trousers, tie his cravat and walk to church with him, leaning on
his arm with maternal pride.
His parents
always told him to get something out of her, either a package of brown sugar,
or soap, or brandy, and sometimes even money. He brought her his clothes to
mend, and she accepted the task gladly, because it meant another visit from
him.
In August,
his father took him on a coasting-vessel.
It was
vacation time and the arrival of the children consoled Felicite. But Paul was
capricious, and Virginia was growing too old to be thee-and-thou'd, a fact
which seemed to produce a sort of embarrassment in their relations.
Victor went
successively to Morlaix, to Dunkirk, and to Brighton; whenever he returned from
a trip he would bring her a present. The first time it was a box of shells; the
second, a coffee-cup; the third, a big doll of ginger-bread. He was growing
handsome, had a good figure, a tiny moustache, kind eyes, and a little leather
cap that sat jauntily on the back of his head. He amused his aunt by telling
her stones mingled with nautical expressions.
One Monday,
the 14th of July, 1819 (she never forgot the date), Victor announced that he
had been engaged on merchant-vessel and that in two days he would take the
steamer at Honfleur and join his sailer, which was going to start from Havre
very soon. Perhaps he might be away two years.
The prospect
of his departure filled Felicite with despair, and in order to bid him
farewell, on Wednesday night, after Madame's dinner, she put on her pattens and
trudged the four miles that separated Pont-l'Eveque from Honfleur.
When she
reached the Calvary, instead of turning to the right, she turned to the left
and lost herself in coal-yards; she had to retrace her steps; some people she
spoke to advised her to hasten. She walked helplessly around the harbour filled
with vessels, and knocked against hawsers. Presently the ground sloped
abruptly, lights flittered to and fro, and she thought all at once that she had
gone mad when she saw some horses in the sky.
Others, on
the edge of the dock, neighed at the sight of the ocean. A derrick pulled them
up in the air and dumped them into a boat, where passengers were bustling about
among barrels of cider, baskets of cheese and bags of meal; chickens cackled,
the captain swore and a cabin-boy rested on the railing, apparently indifferent
to his surroundings. Felicite, who did not recognise him, kept shouting:
"Victor!" He suddenly raised his eyes, but while she was preparing to
rush up to him, they withdrew the gangplank.
The packet,
towed by singing women, glided out of the harbour. Her hull squeaked and the
heavy waves beat up against her sides. The sail had turned and nobody was
visible;--and on the ocean, silvered by the light of the moon, the vessel
formed a black spot that grew dimmer and dimmer, and finally disappeared.
When Felicite
passed the Calvary again, she felt as if she must entrust that which was
dearest to her to the Lord; and for a long while she prayed, with uplifted eyes
and a face wet with tears. The city was sleeping; some customs officials were
taking the air; and the water kept pouring through the holes of the dam with a
deafening roar. The town clock struck two.
The parlour
of the convent would not open until morning, and surely a delay would annoy
Madame; so, in spite of her desire to see the other child, she went home. The
maids of the inn were just arising when she reached Pont-l'Eveque.
So the poor
boy would be on the ocean for months! His previous trips had not alarmed her.
One can come back from England and Brittany; but America, the colonies, the
islands, were all lost in an uncertain region at the very end of the world.
From that
time on, Felicite thought solely of her nephew. On warm days she feared he
would suffer from thirst, and when it stormed, she was afraid he would be
struck by lightning. When she harkened to the wind that rattled in the chimney
and dislodged the tiles on the roof, she imagined that he was being buffeted by
the same storm, perched on top of a shattered mast, with his whole body bent
backward and covered with sea-foam; or,--these were recollections of the
engraved geography--he was being devoured by savages, or captured in a forest
by apes, or dying on some lonely coast. She never mentioned her anxieties,
however.
Madame Aubain
worried about her daughter.
The sisters
thought that Virginia was affectionate but delicate. The slightest emotion
enervated her. She had to give up her piano lessons. Her mother insisted upon
regular letters from the convent. One morning, when the postman failed to come,
she grew impatient and began to pace to and fro, from her chair to the window.
It was really extraordinary! No news since four days!
In order to
console her mistress by her own example, Felicite said:
"Why,
Madame, I haven't had any news since six months!"--
"From
whom?"--
The servant
replied gently:
"Why--from
my nephew."
"Oh,
yes, your nephew!" And shrugging her shoulders, Madame Aubain continued to
pace the floor as if to say: "I did not think of it.--Besides, I do not
care, a cabin-boy, a pauper!--but my daughter--what a difference! just think of
it!--"
Felicite,
although she had been reared roughly, was very indignant. Then she forgot about
it.
It appeared
quite natural to her that one should lose one's head about Virginia.
The two
children were of equal importance; they were united in her heart and their fate
was to be the same.
The chemist
informed her that Victor's vessel had reached Havana. He had read the
information in a newspaper.
Felicite
imagined that Havana was a place where people did nothing but smoke, and that
Victor walked around among negroes in a cloud of tobacco. Could a person, in
case of need, return by land? How far was it from Pont-l'Eveque? In order to
learn these things she questioned Monsieur Bourais. He reached for his map and
began some explanations concerning longitudes, and smiled with superiority at
Felicite's bewilderment. At last, he took his pencil and pointed out an
imperceptible black point in the scallops of an oval blotch, adding:
"There it is." She bent over the map; the maze of coloured lines hurt
her eyes without enlightening her; and when Bourais asked her what puzzled her,
she requested him to show her the house Victor lived in. Bourais threw up his
hands, sneezed, and then laughed uproariously; such ignorance delighted his
soul; but Felicite failed to understand the cause of his mirth, she whose
intelligence was so limited that she perhaps expected to see even the picture
of her nephew!
It was two
weeks later that Liebard came into the kitchen at market-time, and handed her a
letter from her brother-in-law. As neither of them could read, she called upon
her mistress.
Madame
Aubain, who was counting the stitches of her knitting, laid her work down
beside her, opened the letter, started, and in a low tone and with a searching
look said: "They tell you of a--misfortune. Your nephew--."
He had died.
The letter told nothing more.
Felicite
dropped on a chair, leaned her head against the back and closed her lids;
presently they grew pink. Then, with drooping head, inert hands and staring
eyes she repeated at intervals:
"Poor
little chap! poor little chap!"
Liebard
watched her and sighed. Madame Aubain was trembling.
She proposed
to the girl to go see her sister in Trouville.
With a single
motion, Felicite replied that it was not necessary.
There was a
silence. Old Liebard thought it about time for him to take leave.
Then Felicite
uttered:
"They
have no sympathy, they do not care!"
Her head fell
forward again, and from time to time, mechanically, she toyed with the long
knitting-needles on the work-table.
Some women
passed through the yard with a basket of wet clothes.
When she saw
them through the window, she suddenly remembered her own wash; as she had
soaked it the day before, she must go and rinse it now. So she arose and left
the room.
Her tub and
her board were on the bank of the Toucques. She threw a heap of clothes on the
ground, rolled up her sleeves and grasped her bat; and her loud pounding could
be heard in the neighbouring gardens. The meadows were empty, the breeze
wrinkled the stream, at the bottom of which were long grasses that looked like
the hair of corpses floating in the water. She restrained her sorrow and was
very brave until night; but, when she had gone to her own room, she gave way to
it, burying her face in the pillow and pressing her two fists against her
temples.
A long while
afterward, she learned through Victor's captain, the circumstances which
surrounded his death. At the hospital they had bled him too much, treating him
for yellow fever. Four doctors held him at one time. He died almost instantly,
and the chief surgeon had said:
"Here
goes another one!"
His parents
had always treated him barbarously; she preferred not to see them again, and
they made no advances, either from forgetfulness or out of innate hardness.
Virginia was
growing weaker.
A cough,
continual fever, oppressive breathing and spots on her cheeks indicated some
serious trouble. Monsieur Poupart had advised a sojourn in Provence. Madame
Aubain decided that they would go, and she would have had her daughter come
home at once, had it not been for the climate of Pont-l'Eveque.
She made an
arrangement with a livery-stable man who drove her over to the convent every
Tuesday. In the garden there was a terrace, from which the view extends to the
Seine. Virginia walked in it, leaning on her mother's arm and treading the dead
vine leaves. Sometimes the sun, shining through the clouds, made her blink her
lids, when she gazed at the sails in the distance, and let her eyes roam over
the horizon from the chateau of Tancarville to the lighthouses of Havre. Then
they rested in the arbour. Her mother had bought a little cask of fine Malaga
wine, and Virginia, laughing at the idea of becoming intoxicated, would drink a
few drops of it, but never more.
Her strength
returned. Autumn passed. Felicite began to reassure Madame Aubain. But, one
evening, when she returned home after an errand, she met M. Boupart's coach in
front of the door; M. Boupart himself was standing in the vestibule and Madame
Aubain was tying the strings of her bonnet. "Give me my foot-warmer, my purse
and my gloves; and be quick about it," she said.
Virginia had
congestion of the lungs; perhaps it was desperate.
"Not
yet," said the physician, and both got into the carriage, while the snow
fell in thick flakes. It was almost night and very cold.
Felicite
rushed to the church to light a candle. Then she ran after the coach which she
overtook after an hour's chase, sprang up behind and held on to the straps. But
suddenly a thought crossed her mind: "The yard had been left open;
supposing that burglars got in!" And down she jumped.
The next
morning, at daybreak, she called at the doctor's. He had been home, but had
left again. Then she waited at the inn, thinking that strangers might bring her
a letter. At last, at daylight she took the diligence for Lisieux.
The convent
was at the end of a steep and narrow street. When she arrived about at the
middle of it, she heard strange noises, a funeral knell. "It must be for
some one else," thought she; and she pulled the knocker violently.
After several
minutes had elapsed, she heard footsteps, the door was half opened and a nun
appeared. The good sister, with an air of compunction, told her that "she
had just passed away." And at the same time the tolling of Saint-Leonard's
increased.
Felicite
reached the second floor. Already at the threshold, she caught sight of
Virginia lying on her back, with clasped hands, her mouth open and her head
thrown back, beneath a black crucifix inclined toward her, and stiff curtains
which were less white than her face. Madame Aubain lay at the foot of the
couch, clasping it with her arms and uttering groans of agony. The Mother
Superior was standing on the right side of the bed. The three candles on the
bureau made red blurs, and the windows were dimmed by the fog outside. The nuns
carried Madame Aubain from the room.
For two
nights, Felicite never left the corpse. She would repeat the same prayers,
sprinkle holy water over the sheets, get up, come back to the bed and
contemplate the body. At the end of the first vigil, she noticed that the face
had taken on a yellow tinge, the lips grew blue, the nose grew pinched, the
eyes were sunken. She kissed them several times and would not have been greatly
astonished had Virginia opened them; to souls like these the supernatural is
always quite simple. She washed her, wrapped her in a shroud, put her into the
casket, laid a wreath of flowers on her head and arranged her curls. They were
blond and of an extraordinary length for her age. Felicite cut off a big lock
and put half of it into her bosom, resolving never to part with it.
The body was
taken to Pont-l'Eveque, according to Madame Aubain's wishes; she followed the
hearse in a closed carriage.
After the
ceremony it took three quarters of an hour to reach the cemetery. Paul,
sobbing, headed the procession; Monsieur Bourais followed, and then came the
principal inhabitants of the town, the women covered with black capes, and
Felicite. The memory of her nephew, and the thought that she had not been able
to render him these honours, made her doubly unhappy, and she felt as if he
were being buried with Virginia.
Madame
Aubain's grief was uncontrollable. At first she rebelled against God, thinking
that he was unjust to have taken away her child--she who had never done
anything wrong, and whose conscience was so pure! But no! she ought to have
taken her South. Other doctors would have saved her. She accused herself,
prayed to be able to join her child, and cried in the midst of her dreams. Of
the latter, one more especially haunted her. Her husband, dressed like a
sailor, had come back from a long voyage, and with tears in his eyes told her
that he had received the order to take Virginia away. Then they both consulted
about a hiding-place.
Once she came
in from the garden, all upset. A moment before (and she showed the place), the
father and daughter had appeared to her, one after the other; they did nothing
but look at her.
During
several months she remained inert in her room. Felicite scolded her gently; she
must keep up for her son and also for the other one, for "her
memory."
"Her
memory!" replied Madame Aubain, as if she were just awakening, "Oh!
yes, yes, you do not forget her!" This was an allusion to the cemetery
where she had been expressly forbidden to go.
But Felicite
went there every day. At four o'clock exactly, she would go through the town,
climb the hill, open the gate and arrive at Virginia's tomb. It was a small
column of pink marble with a flat stone at its base, and it was surrounded by a
little plot enclosed by chains. The flower-beds were bright with blossoms.
Felicite watered their leaves, renewed the gravel, and knelt on the ground in
order to till the earth properly. When Madame Aubain was able to visit the
cemetery she felt very much relieved and consoled.
Years passed,
all alike and marked by no other events than the return of the great church
holidays: Easter, Assumption, All Saints' Day. Household happenings constituted
the only data to which in later years they often referred. Thus, in 1825,
workmen painted the vestibule; in 1827, a portion of the roof almost killed a
man by falling into the yard. In the summer of 1828, it was Madame's turn to
offer the hallowed bread; at that time, Bourais disappeared mysteriously; and
the old acquaintances, Guyot, Liebard, Madame Lechaptois, Robelin, old
Gremanville, paralysed since a long time, passed away one by one. One night,
the driver of the mail in Pont-l'Eveque announced the Revolution of July. A few
days afterward a new sub-prefect was nominated, the Baron de Larsonniere,
ex-consul in America, who, besides his wife, had his sister-in-law and her
three grown daughters with him. They were often seen on their lawn, dressed in
loose blouses, and they had a parrot and a negro servant. Madame Aubain
received a call, which she returned promptly. As soon as she caught sight of
them, Felicite would run and notify her mistress. But only one thing was
capable of arousing her: a letter from her son.
He could not
follow any profession as he was absorbed in drinking. His mother paid his debts
and he made fresh ones; and the sighs that she heaved while she knitted at the
window reached the ears of Felicite who was spinning in the kitchen.
They walked
in the garden together, always speaking of Virginia, and asking each other if
such and such a thing would have pleased her, and what she would probably have
said on this or that occasion.
All her
little belongings were put away in a closet of the room which held the two
little beds. But Madame Aubain looked them over as little as possible. One
summer day, however, she resigned herself to the task and when she opened the
closet the moths flew out.
Virginia's
frocks were hung under a shelf where there were three dolls, some hoops, a
doll-house, and a basin which she had used. Felicite and Madame Aubain also
took out the skirts, the handkerchiefs, and the stockings and spread them on
the beds, before putting them away again. The sun fell on the piteous things,
disclosing their spots and the creases formed by the motions of the body. The
atmosphere was warm and blue, and a blackbird trilled in the garden; everything
seemed to live in happiness. They found a little hat of soft brown plush, but
it was entirely moth-eaten. Felicite asked for it. Their eyes met and filled
with tears; at last the mistress opened her arms and the servant threw herself
against her breast and they hugged each other and giving vent to their grief in
a kiss which equalized them for a moment.
It was the
first time that this had ever happened, for Madame Aubain was not of an
expansive nature. Felicite was as grateful for it as if it had been some
favour, and thenceforth loved her with animal-like devotion and a religious
veneration.
Her
kind-heartedness developed. When she heard the drums of a marching regiment
passing through the street, she would stand in the doorway with a jug of cider
and give the soldiers a drink. She nursed cholera victims. She protected Polish
refugees, and one of them even declared that he wished to marry her. But they
quarrelled, for one morning when she returned from the Angelus she found him in
the kitchen coolly eating a dish which he had prepared for himself during her
absence.
After the
Polish refugees, came Colmiche, an old man who was credited with having
committed frightful misdeeds in '93. He lived near the river in the ruins of a
pig-sty. The urchins peeped at him through the cracks in the walls and threw
stones that fell on his miserable bed, where he lay gasping with catarrh, with
long hair, inflamed eyelids, and a tumour as big as his head on one arm.
She got him
some linen, tried to clean his hovel and dreamed of installing him in the
bake-house without his being in Madame's way. When the cancer broke, she
dressed it every day; sometimes she brought him some cake and placed him in the
sun on a bundle of hay; and the poor old creature, trembling and drooling,
would thank her in his broken voice, and put out his hands whenever she left
him. Finally he died; and she had a mass said for the repose of his soul.
That day a
great joy came to her: at dinner-time, Madame de Larsonniere's servant called
with the parrot, the cage, and the perch and chain and lock. A note from the
baroness told Madame Aubain that as her husband had been promoted to a
prefecture, they were leaving that night, and she begged her to accept the bird
as a remembrance and a token of her esteem.
Since a long
time the parrot had been on Felicite's mind, because he came from America,
which reminded her of Victor, and she had approached the negro on the subject.
Once even,
she had said:
"How
glad Madame would be to have him!"
The man had
repeated this remark to his mistress who, not being able to keep the bird, took
this means of getting rid of it.
CHAPTER IV
THE BIRD
He was called Loulou. His body was green, his head blue, the tips of his wings were pink and his breast was golden.
But he had
the tiresome tricks of biting his perch, pulling his feathers out, scattering
refuse and spilling the water of his bath. Madame Aubain grew tired of him and
gave him to Felicite for good.
She undertook
his education, and soon he was able to repeat: "Pretty boy! Your servant,
sir! I salute you, Marie!" His perch was placed near the door and several
persons were astonished that he did not answer to the name of
"Jacquot," for every parrot is called Jacquot. They called him a
goose and a log, and these taunts were like so many dagger thrusts to Felicite.
Strange stubbornness of the bird which would not talk when people watched him!
Nevertheless,
he sought society; for on Sunday, when the ladies Rochefeuille, Monsieur de
Houppeville and the new habitues, Onfroy, the chemist, Monsieur Varin and
Captain Mathieu, dropped in for their game of cards, he struck the window-panes
with his wings and made such a racket that it was impossible to talk.
Bourais' face
must have appeared very funny to Loulou. As soon as he saw him he would begin
to roar. His voice re-echoed in the yard, and the neighbours would come to the
windows and begin to laugh, too; and in order that the parrot might not see
him, Monsieur Bourais edged along the wall, pushed his hat over his eyes to
hide his profile, and entered by the garden door, and the looks he gave the
bird lacked affection. Loulou, having thrust his head into the butcher-boy's
basket, received a slap, and from that time he always tried to nip his enemy.
Fabu threatened to wring his neck, although he was not cruelly inclined,
notwithstanding his big whiskers and tattooings. On the contrary, he rather
liked the bird and, out of deviltry, tried to teach him oaths. Felicite, whom
his manner alarmed, put Loulou in the kitchen, took off his chain and let him
walk all over the house.
When he went
downstairs, he rested his beak on the steps, lifted his right foot and then his
left one; but his mistress feared that such feats would give him vertigo. He
became ill and was unable to eat. There was a small growth under his tongue
like those chickens are sometimes afflicted with. Felicite pulled it off with
her nails and cured him. One day, Paul was imprudent enough to blow the smoke
of his cigar in his face; another time, Madame Lormeau was teasing him with the
tip of her umbrella and he swallowed the tip. Finally he got lost.
She had put
him on the grass to cool him and went away only for a second; when she
returned, she found no parrot! She hunted among the bushes, on the bank of the
river, and on the roofs, without paying any attention to Madame Aubain who
screamed at her: "Take care! you must be insane!" Then she searched every
garden in Pont-l'Eveque and stopped the passers-by to inquire of them:
"Haven't you perhaps seen my parrot?" To those who had never seen the
parrot, she described him minutely. Suddenly she thought she saw something
green fluttering behind the mills at the foot of the hill. But when she was at
the top of the hill she could not see it. A hod-carrier told her that he had
just seen the bird in Saint-Melaine, in Mother Simon's store. She rushed to the
place. The people did not know what she was talking about. At last she came
home, exhausted, with her slippers worn to shreds, and despair in her heart.
She sat down on the bench near Madame and was telling of her search when
presently a light weight dropped on her shoulder--Loulou! What the deuce had he
been doing? Perhaps he had just taken a little walk around the town!
She did not
easily forget her scare, in fact, she never got over it. In consequence of a
cold, she caught a sore throat; and some time afterward she had an earache.
Three years later she was stone deaf, and spoke in a very loud voice even in
church. Although her sins might have been proclaimed throughout the diocese
without any shame to herself, or ill effects to the community, the cure thought
it advisable to receive her confession in the vestry-room.
Imaginary
buzzings also added to her bewilderment. Her mistress often said to her:
"My goodness, how stupid you are!" and she would answer: "Yes,
Madame," and look for something.
The narrow
circle of her ideas grew more restricted than it already was; the bellowing of
the oxen, the chime of the bells no longer reached her intelligence. All things
moved silently, like ghosts. Only one noise penetrated her ears: the parrot's
voice.
As if to
divert her mind, he reproduced for her the tick-tack of the spit in the
kitchen, the shrill cry of the fish-vendors, the saw of the carpenter who had a
shop opposite, and when the door-bell rang, he would imitate Madame Aubain:
"Felicite! go to the front door."
They held
conversations together, Loulou repeating the three phrases of his repertory
over and over, Felicite replying by words that had no greater meaning, but in
which she poured out her feelings. In her isolation, the parrot was almost a
son, a lover. He climbed upon her fingers, pecked at her lips, clung to her
shawl, and when she rocked her head to and fro like a nurse, the big wings of
her cap and the wings of the bird flapped in unison. When clouds gathered on
the horizon and the thunder rumbled, Loulou would scream, perhaps because he
remembered the storms in his native forests. The dripping of the rain would
excite him to frenzy; he flapped around, struck the ceiling with his wings,
upset everything, and would finally fly into the garden to play. Then he would
come back into the room, light on one of the andirons, and hop around in order
to get dry.
One morning
during the terrible winter of 1837, when she had put him in front of the
fire-place on account of the cold, she found him dead in his cage, hanging to
the wire bars with his head down. He had probably died of congestion. But she
believed that he had been poisoned, and although she had no proofs whatever,
her suspicion rested on Fabu.
She wept so
sorely that her mistress said: "Why don't you have him stuffed?"
She asked the
advice of the chemist, who had always been kind to the bird.
He wrote to
Havre for her. A certain man named Fellacher consented to do the work. But, as
the diligence driver often lost parcels entrusted to him, Felicite resolved to
take her pet to Honfleur herself.
Leafless
apple-trees lined the edges of the road. The ditches were covered with ice. The
dogs on the neighbouring farms barked; and Felicite, with her hands beneath her
cape, her little black sabots and her basket, trotted along nimbly in the
middle of the sidewalk. She crossed the forest, passed by the Haut-Chene and
reached Saint-Gatien.
Behind her,
in a cloud of dust and impelled by the steep incline, a mail-coach drawn by
galloping horses advanced like a whirlwind. When he saw a woman in the middle
of the road, who did not get out of the way, the driver stood up in his seat
and shouted to her and so did the postilion, while the four horses, which he
could not hold back, accelerated their pace; the two leaders were almost upon
her; with a jerk of the reins he threw them to one side, but, furious at the
incident, he lifted his big whip and lashed her from her head to her feet with
such violence that she fell to the ground unconscious.
Her first
thought, when she recovered her senses, was to open the basket. Loulou was unharmed.
She felt a sting on her right cheek; when she took her hand away it was red,
for the blood was flowing.
She sat down
on a pile of stones, and sopped her cheek with her handkerchief; then she ate a
crust of bread she had put in her basket, and consoled herself by looking at
the bird.
Arriving at
the top of Ecquemanville, she saw the lights of Honfleur shining in the
distance like so many stars; further on, the ocean spread out in a confused
mass. Then a weakness came over her; the misery of her childhood, the
disappointment of her first love, the departure of her nephew, the death of
Virginia; all these things came back to her at once, and, rising like a
swelling tide in her throat, almost choked her.
Then she
wished to speak to the captain of the vessel, and without stating what she was
sending, she gave him some instructions.
Fellacher
kept the parrot a long time. He always promised that it would be ready for the
following week; after six months he announced the shipment of a case, and that
was the end of it. Really, it seemed as if Loulou would never come back to his
home. "They have stolen him," thought Felicite.
Finally he
arrived, sitting bolt upright on a branch which could be screwed into a
mahogany pedestal, with his foot in the air, his head on one side, and in his
beak a nut which the naturalist, from love of the sumptuous, had gilded. She
put him in her room.
This place,
to which only a chosen few were admitted, looked like a chapel and a
second-hand shop, so filled was it with devotional and heterogeneous things.
The door could not be opened easily on account of the presence of a large
wardrobe. Opposite the window that looked out into the garden, a bull's-eye
opened on the yard; a table was placed by the cot and held a washbasin, two
combs, and a piece of blue soap in a broken saucer. On the walls were rosaries,
medals, a number of Holy Virgins, and a holy-water basin made out of a
cocoanut; on the bureau, which was covered with a napkin like an altar, stood
the box of shells that Victor had given her; also a watering-can and a balloon,
writing-books, the engraved geography and a pair of shoes; on the nail which
held the mirror, hung Virginia's little plush hat! Felicite carried this sort
of respect so far that she even kept one of Monsieur's old coats. All the
things which Madame Aubain discarded, Felicite begged for her own room. Thus,
she had artificial flowers on the edge of the bureau, and the picture of the
Comte d'Artois in the recess of the window. By means of a board, Loulou was set
on a portion of the chimney which advanced into the room. Every morning when
she awoke, she saw him in the dim light of dawn and recalled bygone days and
the smallest details of insignificant actions, without any sense of bitterness
or grief.
As she was
unable to communicate with people, she lived in a sort of somnambulistic
torpor. The processions of Corpus-Christi Day seemed to wake her up. She
visited the neighbours to beg for candlesticks and mats so as to adorn the
temporary altars in the street.
In church,
she always gazed at the Holy Ghost, and noticed that there was something about
it that resembled a parrot. The likeness appeared even more striking on a
coloured picture by Espinal, representing the baptism of our Saviour. With his
scarlet wings and emerald body, it was really the image of Loulou. Having
bought the picture, she hung it near the one of the Comte d'Artois so that she
could take them in at one glance.
They
associated in her mind, the parrot becoming sanctified through the
neighbourhood of the Holy Ghost, and the latter becoming more lifelike in her
eyes, and more comprehensible. In all probability the Father had never chosen
as messenger a dove, as the latter has no voice, but rather one of Loulou's
ancestors. And Felicite said her prayers in front of the coloured picture,
though from time to time she turned slightly toward the bird.
She desired
very much to enter in the ranks of the "Daughters of the Virgin." But
Madame Aubain dissuaded her from it.
A most
important event occurred: Paul's marriage.
After being
first a notary's clerk, then in business, then in the customs, and a tax
collector, and having even applied for a position in the administration of
woods and forests, he had at last, when he was thirty-six years old, by a
divine inspiration, found his vocation: registrature! and he displayed such a
high ability that an inspector had offered him his daughter and his influence.
Paul, who had
become quite settled, brought his bride to visit his mother.
But she
looked down upon the customs of Pont-l'Eveque, put on airs, and hurt Felicite's
feelings. Madame Aubain felt relieved when she left.
The following
week they learned of Monsieur Bourais' death in an inn. There were rumours of
suicide, which were confirmed; doubts concerning his integrity arose. Madame
Aubain looked over her accounts and soon discovered his numerous embezzlements;
sales of wood which had been concealed from her, false receipts, etc. Furthermore,
he had an illegitimate child, and entertained a friendship for "a person
in Dozule."
These base
actions affected her very much. In March, 1853, she developed a pain in her
chest; her tongue looked as if it were coated with smoke, and the leeches they
applied did not relieve her oppression; and on the ninth evening she died,
being just seventy-two years old.
People
thought that she was younger, because her hair, which she wore in bands framing
her pale face, was brown. Few friends regretted her loss, for her manner was so
haughty that she did not attract them. Felicite mourned for her as servants
seldom mourn for their masters. The fact that Madame should die before herself
perplexed her mind and seemed contrary to the order of things, and absolutely
monstrous and inadmissible. Ten days later (the time to journey from Besancon),
the heirs arrived. Her daughter-in-law ransacked the drawers, kept some of the
furniture, and sold the rest; then they went back to their own home.
Madame's
armchair, foot-warmer, work-table, the eight chairs, everything was gone! The
places occupied by the pictures formed yellow squares on the walls. They had
taken the two little beds, and the wardrobe had been emptied of Virginia's
belongings! Felicite went upstairs, overcome with grief.
The following
day a sign was posted on the door; the chemist screamed in her ear that the
house was for sale.
For a moment
she tottered, and had to sit down.
What hurt her
most was to give up her room,--so nice for poor Loulou! She looked at him in
despair and implored the Holy Ghost, and it was this way that she contracted
the idolatrous habit of saying her prayers kneeling in front of the bird.
Sometimes the sun fell through the window on his glass eye, and lighted a great
spark in it which sent Felicite into ecstasy.
Her mistress
had left her an income of three hundred and eighty francs. The garden supplied
her with vegetables. As for clothes, she had enough to last her till the end of
her days, and she economised on the light by going to bed at dusk.
She rarely
went out, in order to avoid passing in front of the second-hand dealer's shop
where there was some of the old furniture. Since her fainting spell, she
dragged her leg, and as her strength was failing rapidly, old Mother Simon, who
had lost her money in the grocery business, came every morning to chop the wood
and pump the water.
Her eyesight
grew dim. She did not open the shutters after that. Many years passed. But the
house did not sell or rent. Fearing that she would be put out, Felicite did not
ask for repairs. The laths of the roof were rotting away, and during one whole
winter her bolster was wet. After Easter she spit blood.
Then Mother
Simon went for a doctor. Felicite wished to know what her complaint was. But,
being too deaf to hear, she caught only one word: "Pneumonia." She
was familiar with it and gently answered:--"Ah! like Madame,"
thinking it quite natural that she should follow her mistress.
The time for
the altars in the street drew near.
The first one
was always erected at the foot of the hill, the second in front of the
post-office, and the third in the middle of the street. This position
occasioned some rivalry among the women and they finally decided upon Madame
Aubain's yard.
Felicite's
fever grew worse. She was sorry that she could not do anything for the altar.
If she could, at least, have contributed something toward it! Then she thought
of the parrot. Her neighbours objected that it would not be proper. But the
cure gave his consent and she was so grateful for it that she begged him to
accept after her death, her only treasure, Loulou. From Tuesday until Saturday,
the day before the event, she coughed more frequently. In the evening her face
was contracted, her lips stuck to her gums and she began to vomit; and on the
following day, she felt so low that she called for a priest.
Three
neighbours surrounded her when the dominie administered the Extreme Unction.
Afterwards she said that she wished to speak to Fabu.
He arrived in
his Sunday clothes, very ill at ease among the funereal surroundings.
"Forgive
me," she said, making an effort to extend her arm, "I believed it was
you who killed him!"
What did such
accusations mean? Suspect a man like him of murder! And Fabu became excited and
was about to make trouble.
"Don't
you see she is not in her right mind?"
From time to
time Felicite spoke to shadows. The women left her and Mother Simon sat down to
breakfast.
A little
later, she took Loulou and holding him up to Felicite:
"Say
good-bye to him, now!" she commanded.
Although he
was not a corpse, he was eaten up by worms; one of his wings was broken and the
wadding was coming out of his body. But Felicite was blind now, and she took
him and laid him against her cheek. Then Mother Simon removed him in order to
set him on the altar.
CHAPTER V
THE VISION
The grass exhaled an odour of summer; flies buzzed in the air, the sun shone on the river and warmed the slated roof. Old Mother Simon had returned to Felicite and was peacefully falling asleep.
The ringing
of bells woke her; the people were coming out of church. Felicite's delirium
subsided. By thinking of the procession, she was able to see it as if she had
taken part in it. All the school-children, the singers and the firemen walked
on the sidewalks, while in the middle of the street came first the custodian of
the church with his halberd, then the beadle with a large cross, the teacher in
charge of the boys and a sister escorting the little girls; three of the
smallest ones, with curly heads, threw rose leaves into the air; the deacon
with outstretched arms conducted the music; and two incense-bearers turned with
each step they took toward the Holy Sacrament, which was carried by M. le Cure,
attired in his handsome chasuble and walking under a canopy of red velvet
supported by four men. A crowd of people followed, jammed between the walls of
the houses hung with white sheets; at last the procession arrived at the foot
of the hill.
A cold sweat
broke out on Felicite's forehead. Mother Simon wiped it away with a cloth,
saying inwardly that some day she would have to go through the same thing
herself.
The murmur of
the crowd grew louder, was very distinct for a moment and then died away. A
volley of musketry shook the window-panes. It was the postilions saluting the
Sacrament.
Felicite
rolled her eyes and said as loudly as she could:
"Is he
all right?" meaning the parrot.
Her death
agony began. A rattle that grew more and more rapid shook her body. Froth
appeared at the corners of her mouth, and her whole frame trembled. In a little
while could be heard the music of the bass horns, the clear voices of the
children and the men's deeper notes. At intervals all was still, and their
shoes sounded like a herd of cattle passing over the grass.
The clergy
appeared in the yard. Mother Simon climbed on a chair to reach the bull's-eye,
and in this manner could see the altar. It was covered with a lace cloth and
draped with green wreaths. In the middle stood a little frame containing
relics; at the corners were two little orange-trees, and all along the edge
were silver candlesticks, porcelain vases containing sun-flowers, lilies,
peonies, and tufts of hydrangeas. This mound of bright colours descended
diagonally from the first floor to the carpet that covered the sidewalk. Rare
objects arrested one's eye. A golden sugar-bowl was crowned with violets,
earrings set with Alencon stones were displayed on green moss, and two Chinese
screens with their bright landscapes were near by. Loulou, hidden beneath
roses, showed nothing but his blue head which looked like a piece of
lapis-lazuli.
The singers,
the canopy-bearers and the children lined up against the sides of the yard.
Slowly the priest ascended the steps and placed his shining sun on the lace
cloth. Everybody knelt. There was deep silence; and the censers slipping on
their chains were swung high in the air. A blue vapour rose in Felicite's room.
She opened her nostrils and inhaled it with a mystic sensuousness; then she
closed her lids. Her lips smiled. The beats of her heart grew fainter and
fainter, and vaguer, like a fountain giving out, like an echo dying away;--and
when she exhaled her last breath, she thought she saw in the half-opened
heavens a gigantic parrot hovering above her head.
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