BORN OF MAN AND WOMAN
X — This day when it had light mother called me
retch. You retch she said. I saw in her eyes the anger. I wonder what it is a
retch.
This day it had water falling from upstairs. It
fell all around. I saw that. The ground of the back I watched from the little
window. The ground it sucked up the water like thirsty lips. It drank too much
and it got sick and runny brown. I didnt like it.
Mother is a pretty I know. In my bed place with
cold walls around I have a paper things that was behind the furnace. It says on
it 5CREENSTARS. I see in the pictures faces like of mother and father. Father
says they are pretty. Once he said it.
And also mother he said. Mother so pretty and me
decent enough. Look at you he said and didnt have the nice face. I touched his
arm and said it is alright father. He shook and pulled away where I couldnt
reach.
Today mother let me off the chain a little so I
could look out the little window. Thats how l saw the water falling from
upstairs.
XX — This day it had goldness in the upstairs. As
I know when I looked at it my eyes hurt. After I look at it the cellar is red.
I think this was church. They leave the upstairs.
The big machine swallows them and rolls out past and is gone. In the back part
is the little mother. She is much small than me. lam I can see out the little
window all I like.
In this day when it got dark I had eat my food
and some bugs. I hear laughs upstairs. I like to know why there are laughs for.
I took the chain from the wall and wrapped it around me. I walked squish to the
stairs. They creak when I walk on them. My legs slip on them because I dont
walk on stairs. My feet stick to the wood.
I went up and opened a door. It was a white
place. White as white jewels that come from upstairs sometime. I went in and
stood quiet. I hear the laughing some more. I walk to the sound and look
through to the people. More people than I thought was. I thought I should laugh
with them.
Mother came out and pushed the door in. It hit me
and hurt. I fell back on the smooth floor and the chain made noise. I cried.
She made a hissing noise into her and put her hand on her mouth. Her eyes got
big.
She looked at me. I heard father call. What fell
he called. She said a iron board. Come help pick it up she said. He came and
said now is that so heavy you need. He saw me and grew big. The anger came in
his eyes. He hit me. I spilled some of the drip on the floor from one arm. It
was not nice. It made ugly green on the floor.
Father told me to go to the cellar. I had to go.
The light it hurt some now in my eyes. It is not so like that in the cellar.
Father tied my legs and arms up. He put me on my
bed. Upstairs I heard laughing while I was quiet there looking on a black
spider that was swinging down to me. I thought what father said. Ohgod he said.
And only eight.
XXX — This day father hit in the chain again
before it had light. I have to try pull it out again. He said I was bad to come
upstairs. He said never do that again or he would beat me hard. That hurts.
I hurt. I slept the day and rested my head
against the cold wall. I thought of the white place upstairs.
XXXX — I got the chain from the wall out. Mother
was upstairs. I heard little laughs very high. I looked out the window. I saw
all little people like the little mother and little fathers too. They are
pretty.
They were making nice noise and jumping around
the ground. Their legs was moving hard. They are like mother and father. Mother
says all right people look like they do.
One of the little fathers saw me. He pointed at
the window. I let go and slid down the wall in the dark. I curled up as they
would not see. I heard their talks by the window and foots running. Upstairs
there was a door hitting. I heard the little mother call upstairs. I heard
heavy steps and I rushed in my bed place. I hit the chain in the wall and lay
down on my front.
I heard my mother come down. Have you been at the
window she said. I heard the anger. Stay away from the window. You have pulled
the chain out again.
She took the stick and hit me with it. I didnt
cry. I cant do that. But the drip ran all over the bed. She saw it and twisted
away and made a noise. Oh mygodmygod she said why have you done this to me? I
beard the stick go bounce on the stone floor. She ran upstairs. I slept the
day.
XXXXX — This day it had water again. When mother
was upstairs I heard the little one come slow down the steps. I hidded myself
in the coal bin for mother would have anger if the little mother saw me.
She had a little live thing with her. It walked
on the arms and had pointy ears. She said things to it.
It was all right except the live thing smelled
me. It ran up the coal and looked down at me. The hairs stood up. In the throat
it made an angry noise. I hissed but it jumped on me.
I didnt want to hurt it. I got fear because it
bit me harder than the rat does. I hurt and the little mother screamed. I
grabbed the live thing tight. It made sounds I never heard. I pushed it all
together. It was all lumpy and red on the black coal.
I hid there when mother called. I was afraid of
the stick. She left. I crept over the coal with the thing. I hid it under my
pillow and rested on it. I put the chain in the wall again.
X — This is another times. Father chained me
tight. I hurt because he beat me. This time I hit the stick out of his hands
and made noise. He went away and his lace was white. He ran out of my bed place
and locked the door.
I am not so glad. All day it is cold in here. The
chain comes slow out of the wall. And I have a bad anger with mother and
father. I will show them. I will do what I did that once.
I will screech and laugh loud. I will run on the
walls. Last I will hang head down by all my legs and laugh and drip green all
over until they are sorry they didn't be nice to me.
If they try to beat me again Ill hurt them. I will.
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